If you’re getting started with meditation and you have no clue if you are doing it right, WHO CARES? Be wrong. Be bad at meditation and right then, you’ll get good at it. It’s the Buddhist gift of it all. I promise.
When I started meditating, I spent 90% of the meditation wondering if I was doing it right. Did it need to absolutely silent? Am I sitting right? Why’s it so uncomfortable? I read a ton of books, took classes, and literally tried to get an A in meditation. What actually worked though, was my willingness to be wrong and to continue to show up for it every day.
Every morning, I spent 10 minutes tripping out that I couldn’t meditate. About 6 months into it, I decided WHO CARES?! I WILL lay down on my back and call it meditation. I WILL meditate while the trash is being collected even though it’s insanely loud. I WILL put crystals on my forehead when I meditate. Once I “broke the rules,” meditation became my own.